This 35 years old lady, with underlying cervical cancer with disease progression was a regular customer in our ward. Her condition were not good. She had a mum and a brother. Brother was already married, their father left them for another women. This patient, Ms S preferred to stay in the hospital. Her condition was not good and she was not fit for the palliative chemotherapy.
She was the one:
1. whom I arranged her to SGH, Kuching previously. (end of last year)
2. whom she wished to have a life like other normal person.
3. whom she saw me came out from my oncall room after taking my shower, and told me that how she wished to be able to take a shower. (she was bed-bound and her mother wiped her body and changed her pampers everyday).
Sometimes, patients ask questions or give statement which will pierce through your heart.
Her condition deteriorated day by day, we kept her in the ward, giving the best supportive care that we could including IV drips, painkiller etc.
One day I decided to buy her a bouquet of roses. To my surprise, she broke into tears when she received the flowers. Her mother helped her to put the flower in an empty bottle, and her mother watered the flower 3 times in a day. But roses wilted after a week. I managed to quietly changed her roses on weekly basis. Managed to change 3 times in total. At last, during my oncall, her condition further worsen and at last, she left all of us. I signed her death certificate. Before this, I didn't see anyone came to hospital to visit her, except for her mum, sat by her side everyday and took good care of her. However, when she passed away, some unfamiliar faces turned up.
Some people questioned me that, why I bought her flowers instead of giving her money to buy some good food for her. I don't know. I am happy when I see flowers. I hope she will be happy as well by receiving the flowers. My wish is just to add a little bit of happiness for her. I don't know what else can I do for her. She had junk food and kuih raya beside her bed but she had no appetite at all.
At last, the roses wilted forever, no more replacement, unable to be revived.
It is the same with our life.....please live your life to the fullest, and above all, appreciate those around you, those who helped and loved you. Especially those who helped you even when they themselves are struggling, because they really love you.
My last oncall on 16th August 2019, I admitted another cervical cancer patient with disease progression. Her bowel obstructed and became distended. Her kidneys are in bad condition. She is 41 years old. She asked me is there any hope to cure? Her son(adopted) is only 1 year 9 months old and he is waiting for her at home. How did I answer her? What did I say to her?
She was the one:
1. whom I arranged her to SGH, Kuching previously. (end of last year)
2. whom she wished to have a life like other normal person.
3. whom she saw me came out from my oncall room after taking my shower, and told me that how she wished to be able to take a shower. (she was bed-bound and her mother wiped her body and changed her pampers everyday).
Sometimes, patients ask questions or give statement which will pierce through your heart.
Her condition deteriorated day by day, we kept her in the ward, giving the best supportive care that we could including IV drips, painkiller etc.
One day I decided to buy her a bouquet of roses. To my surprise, she broke into tears when she received the flowers. Her mother helped her to put the flower in an empty bottle, and her mother watered the flower 3 times in a day. But roses wilted after a week. I managed to quietly changed her roses on weekly basis. Managed to change 3 times in total. At last, during my oncall, her condition further worsen and at last, she left all of us. I signed her death certificate. Before this, I didn't see anyone came to hospital to visit her, except for her mum, sat by her side everyday and took good care of her. However, when she passed away, some unfamiliar faces turned up.
Some people questioned me that, why I bought her flowers instead of giving her money to buy some good food for her. I don't know. I am happy when I see flowers. I hope she will be happy as well by receiving the flowers. My wish is just to add a little bit of happiness for her. I don't know what else can I do for her. She had junk food and kuih raya beside her bed but she had no appetite at all.
At last, the roses wilted forever, no more replacement, unable to be revived.
It is the same with our life.....please live your life to the fullest, and above all, appreciate those around you, those who helped and loved you. Especially those who helped you even when they themselves are struggling, because they really love you.
My last oncall on 16th August 2019, I admitted another cervical cancer patient with disease progression. Her bowel obstructed and became distended. Her kidneys are in bad condition. She is 41 years old. She asked me is there any hope to cure? Her son(adopted) is only 1 year 9 months old and he is waiting for her at home. How did I answer her? What did I say to her?
