Life is as fragile as it can be

During my last oncall, I was so busy. I transferred out a total of 3 patients who deteriorated. In the end, one passed away, one remained in acute COVID ward and one went into the COVID ICU.

One of the uncle, before he was transferred out, he quickly called his assistant and sold all his stocks. He then gave a last call to all his children. Unfortunately, all of them were not in Sibu. 

Another middle age uncle, his condition was the worst. His daughter, who was tested positive followed him to the acute ward. Unfortunately, he couldn't make it through. I got the news in the next morning that, he passed away.

Lastly, an aunty with a 6 years old daughter. The aunty's condition deteriorated too in the ward. We sent her off, leaving the daughter behind, whom will followed her uncle back home to continue home quarantine. The daughter cried so badly, she wanted to go back with her mum. It was a very heart breaking moment. My nurses and I, we accompanied her in the COVID ward. All of us, including other COVID patients felt sad seeing her, kept comforting her. She is 6 years old, she knows what happened. 

Life is as fragile as it can be. This COVID-19 is bad, you never know how fast it can "eat" you. That is why sometimes I will take an effort to help the COVID patients to video call their kids, you never know when is the last goodbye. Therefore, please continue to take care out there, peeps!

Lonely Death due to COVID-19

Day 4: Yesterday, the son of Madam L called the hospital and asked me how's the mother's condition. I told him that she is not doing well. The next day when I went to work, I got to know that Madam L passed away already at 9pm the night before. It was quite a lonely death, whereby the family cannot go in and see her, be with her at her very last few hours in this world.

Oncall: We have one new patient, Madam T, 78 years old with underlying hypertension, dyslipidemia (high cholesterol) and diabetes mellitus. She contracted the COVID-19 infection from her husband. He was admitted to another COVID ward, his condition was more severe. Inside my ward, she refused all the oxygen support. She was very aggressive, she told us that she would rather die than getting the oxygen supplication. During my oncall, I went in to see the patient, she is already unconscious by that time. Managed to talk to her that, "Jesus is son of God, He died for your sin, He can save you. Trust him and you will be saved." 

    12 hours later, at around 6am, I was informed by the nurse that she passed away. I pronounced death to her family members over the phone and signed her death certificate. It is an indescribable feeling, people just left, one by one due to COVID-19. The day I was oncall, there was 11 deaths due to COVID in the hospital, and another 3 brought in dead, tested COVID positive too.

COVID-19 Deployment

This is my second time deployment to handle COVID-19 patients. Last time I was deployed to low risk quarantine centre. However, this time around, I requested to go to the COVID ward, a COVID ward where they also parked the pregnant ladies there. 

Day 1

I went into the COVID ward to review patients. After settling all my jobs, initially I plan to pray for a baby, because she kept crying non stop. Pity the mother. However, in the end I invited other patients to come and we prayed together. They were mostly Iban but I prayed in English. A bit headache when I was too long inside, probably it was too hot. When doffing, my whole attire were wet, water drippling when I squeezed it. It was all wet!

Met my specialist in-charged today. She was very cheerful, nice and very approachable person. Thank God for giving me a good superior.

Day 2

Today, again it is my turn to don in (means I need to wear full PPE and enter COVID ward to see patients). After everything settled, I "beh tahan" with the heat already, want to leave immediately. However, I still walked to the back cubicle and asked, if the patients yesterday, still need prayers or not. To my surprise, this is the reply from one of the patient: "Dr, saya nak minta tolong kamu berdoa untuk saya dan anak lagi, tapi tadi saya nampak Dr busy, tak jadi saya minta tolong Dr." I smiled, invited the rest of the patients who wanted to join us and we prayed together.