Sunday, April 20, 2014

Trust in Him

Yesterday, I almost booked the 6.40pm flight ticket and went back to Sibu, something happened to a very very close friend of mine and I was so worried. However, I had a bed side teaching session yesterday at 5pm so I can't make it to board on time. I was struggling, because I was worried about my friend and I prayed all the times asking God do I have to go back and company her? 

Often, those who know me always tell me that I don't have a life because my family members do not allow me to do this this this and that that that. E.g. I am not allowed to drive, I am not allowed to go to the beach and the lists will go on. I told them, I don't want to make them worried. By the way, I do not consider myself as not having a life! Instead, I enjoyed my life and I am experiencing a very adventurous journey with my Heavenly Father. (^^,) However, sometimes, my family members are over protective and there are times when I was stressed up too. It ended up that I have to start reasoning with them. Latest issue, I want to apply my housemanship in Sabah but my grandmother doesn't allow (>.<), but it's ok, I am lazy to go to Sabah as well.. hahahaha....She just want me to be in Klang Valley, but I have told her that I want to go back to Sibu. Although she was a bit reluctant initially, but after I tried to do some reasoning with her, apparently she allows me to go back :)

So basically, I understand how my mum and my grandmother felt when they are worry, because I acted that way too yesterday (actually it was not only the yesterday incident, when my grandpa just passed away, I was so worried for my grandma too). I was so worried about my friend that I want to fly back to Sibu because a night prior to that, my friend was crying over the phone and I just felt bad for not being by her side. As I prayed throughout the day, I asked God to speak to me and at last I had decided to not to go back, submitting her into God's hand. Asking His favour to comfort my friend. Therefore, I went to the class from 8.30 am to 1.30 pm, then I had my lunch and prepared for the next bed side teaching session at 5.00 pm. It was actually a Saturday and ya, that is my weekends. it was only 5 of us going to the bed side teaching and thanks God, I learnt a lot. Moreover, the doctor said that I was good because I always attended his class :)

At night, at around 10.30pm? I received messages, a really long sharings from my sister! She started of with "God's grace is always sufficient for me...." And she moves on telling me what happened to her yesterday and as I read her messages, I kept saying, "Thank you Lord" in my heart and apparently I broke into tears. It was a tear of gratefulness and joy. Thank you Lord for listening to our prayer! And I told Him, after this, I will submit everything unto Your Mighty hands, and not trying to solve all the problems with my limited ability and knowledge, for You are so great and You love us so dearly. 

In Psalms 33:5 You told us that weeping may stay for the night but rejoicing comes in the morning. Thank you Lord :) Hopefully, my family will learn to trust me into Your Mighty hands as well. 

Saturday, March 8, 2014

Tetap Cinta Yesus 仍然愛著耶穌





Thursday night I was oncall, and my spiritual sister called me. After we chatted for an hour, she sang this song for me. Thank you Lord for the angels that you placed around me.

仍然愛著耶穌
演唱/Edward陳國富
詞曲/Hendro Suseno

我要永永遠遠愛著耶穌
我要永永遠遠愛著耶穌
雖然生命中會不斷遭遇狂風和暴雨
我仍然永永遠遠地愛著耶穌
哦 天父天父
我是祢所愛兒女
使我一生都享受祢恩典
哦 天父天父
我是祢所愛兒女
按著天父祢心意 來使用我

Monday, February 3, 2014

Do not promise anything

Today I am so sad. I made two promises and I did not fulfill both. The feeling of making my friends, especially a very very close and good friend of urs disappointed is not awesome at all.

My first promise was to bring in some food (breakfast) for her but I failed to fulfill it as I had another commitment, which was CNY House Visitation with my juniors. Again, it was my fault to arrange a tight schedule! 

My second promise was to have lunch with her, only to find out that my family members did not allow me to drive alone to Sibu General Hospital. I quarelled with my mum after that. :( As usual, she is been over-protective once again! 

I am feeling really bad for letting her down twice. Lessons learnt! Try not to keep any promise.....!! Do not hurt others...! Especially those you love... Today I have hurt my family members n a very very good friend of mine.😭😔 please, no more next time.

Sunday, January 12, 2014

Letting down the net

“And Simon answering said unto him, Master, we have toiled all the night, and have taken nothing: nevertheless at thy word I will let down the net.” Luke 5: 5.

Dear Heavenly Father, help us to recognize our insufficiency, in ur grace. And I am willing to letting down my net to see thy wondrous miracles. Use me, as your instrument on earth and let me have a partnership with you for heavenly agenda. Please bless my friends and I, may all of us pass our final pro exam part 1, and above all, I pray that we are able to apply the knowledge in future. In Jesus most precious name, Amen!

Sunday, December 29, 2013

上帝給你比較多一點,就是要你多付出一點

文╱連加恩

作者簡介
連加恩,台灣陽明大學醫學系第二十屆畢業。2001年6月,放棄預官資格,參加台灣第一屆外交替代役男,在服役的布吉納法索期間的優異表現,贏得外交部頒發「睦誼外交獎章」。2005年,他返回台灣接受家醫科住院醫師訓練,於同年獲布國總統龔保雷先生頒發國家騎士級勳章,以肯定他的貢獻。目前於疾病管制局擔任防疫醫師。這本書是他寫給現在2歲兒子的書。


親愛的兒子:

當爸媽以前,我只知道當孩子的心情,孩子們不喜歡爸媽拿自己和別人比來比去,現在自己當了爸媽才知道,天下父母心──從出生的體重、身高,還有雙眼皮的角度,就已經開始了這場一輩子的競賽。
當你出生第三天,爸媽把你接到坐月子中心,看你和其他「同學」一字排開,探望你的親友就忍不住拿其他的寶寶指指點點:「你看這一排還是我們的比較可愛!」「你看那個是誰家的怎麼那麼黑?」等等。
有一次,我不經意的聽到你隔壁床小朋友的爸爸和親友聊天,他指著你說:「天啊!為什麼他的頭比我們的大這麼多?」

親愛的兒子,爸爸答應你:盡量克制自己不要老是拿你和別的小孩比較,就算爸爸愛和人家比較,我會放在心裡比,不會像那位爸爸,還大叫出來。
雖然,等你大一點去了學校,爸爸一定會要你好好唸書,考試後,也會忍不住問你其他人考幾分、在班上排第幾名之類的問題,老爸其實很清楚,這些東西真正影響人生路的程度並不大;持續的努力、擁有好的品格、充滿上帝恩典的際遇影響才大。其實很多數字,好比你的出生體重、頭圍,現在看來也不過是親友們聊天的題材,或拿來耍耍嘴皮子用的啦!

上帝給你的這個人生,就是最獨特、最特別的,你有自己的路要走,天底下有六十幾億人,每人自成一格,該怎麼比?如果真的要比,爸爸告訴你,其實你的頭也沒有很大啦!

但是,如果你不小心和人家比較了、發現自己什麼都贏人家,那代表你的責任更大了!爸爸在非洲的許多朋友,沒有聽過什麼叫做「坐月子中心」,他們的孩子一出生就睡在泥地上的草蓆,罩在蓋剩菜剩飯用的防蚊罩裡,為了躲避瘧疾的威脅,孩子長到5歲以前,他們不敢宣稱家裡多了一個人,因為隨便一個傳染病就可能奪走他們的性命。

說真的,如果你比老爸非洲朋友的孩子們更聰明、更會考試或更有學問,爸爸一點都不會感到意外,上帝給你比較多一點,就是要你多付出一點。這些被你「比下去的人」,都是你的責任範圍,你要用上天給你的才能,去做一些事情幫助這些人。若用這個角度出發,爸爸就可以要求你好好唸書了,目的不是爸爸可以拿你的成績單,去和我朋友們的孩子比較;而是你被賦予了使命,用你的專業和貢獻去改變你所在的世界,讓那些沒有你幸運的人,可以過得更好。
奉獻一生給非洲的史懷哲醫師,小時候也很愛比。他比什麼呢?「比武」。

有一次,他和鄰居的孩子打架,獲得壓倒性的勝利,那個打輸的孩子說了一句不服氣的話,改變了他一生,他說:「如果我像你家一樣,可以天天吃肉,我就不會輸給你了。」這話讓年幼的史懷哲察覺自己的優越和優勢,都是建立在上天所賜的福氣,而不是他自己有什麼了不得。

當他進一步去思考:上帝給他如此幸福的成長背景、順利的求學過程和不凡的天分之目的為何時,他決定把自己奉獻給非洲無數可憐的人,來活出那一個目的。

親愛的兒子,

老爸常常覺得你實在很幸福,你們這一代的人都是,我告訴你這個故事,是希望你不需要等到和鄰居打架,才發覺這個道理。下定決心服務人群的史懷哲,在完成了醫學、神學、演奏學三個博士學位之後,才踏上前往非洲的旅程。每次,當老爸受邀作非洲服務的相關演講,之後的Q&A 中,年輕學子最常問到的問題就是:「現階段的我們該如何準備,才能去第三世界服務?」

有時,他們眼裡還閃著真誠的淚光,讓我實在不知道怎樣回答,才算是夠慎重。
直到一年聖誕節,在台北市政府廣場有一個盛大的晚會,現場集結了五千多位民眾,在電視實況連線之下,我被邀請作短短的分享,當我拉拉雜雜的講完要下台時,主持人「黑人」(他是藝名叫黑人,不是真的黑人)忽然讓我措手不及的說:「那最後請你跟大家講講,要加入你們的非洲工作,需要具備什麼條件?」看著手錶,我只剩一分鐘可以回答,我隨口答了一句:「只要覺得自己很幸福的人,都可以去!」就下台了。

我想講的是,攔阻我們願意幫助別人最大的心理障礙就是:「『比』起別人,我還不夠幸福!」的想法。
小學老師告訴我們:「不要成為手心向上,而要成為手心向下的人,因為向下是給,向上代表乞討。」如果我是小學老師,我會講一句相反的話:「大家要先學會成為一個手心向上的人,當你把手心朝上,可以感覺到自己是一個幸福的接受者,不斷從這個社會、國家、爸媽、老師、校長和上帝那裡領受愛的灌注,那麼,你就可以把手心向下翻,把福氣分享給其他的人。」

孩子,你要先體會自己是一個幸福的接受者——「知道自己從上天白白領受恩典」,然後分享你所領受的福氣給人。上帝會給你更多,你就越有力量幫助更多的人,這是一個良性循環的迴路。這種情況下,你更不需要比,「You got nothing to lose !」——在人生這件事上,你只會越贏越多。





Tuesday, December 24, 2013

亲爱的。。

我亲爱的弟弟妹妹们,等我哦~ 我渴望到你们那儿去,我因主的缘故,盼望早日与你们在主里 相聚,述说祂的奇妙恩典!所以,要努力读书。


如果能的话,我也想把我姐拉去。但,不知她有没有这个负担? 更何况,目前 我的母堂好需要她哦!父啊,求祢继续让我们两,无论在哪里都好,继续让我们做祢重用的器皿,成为他人的祝福,啊门!

离考试还有23天。压力 好大,可是 总要对阿爸天父有信心啊!

Sunday, December 22, 2013

为什么?

为什么一个一个我心爱,心疼的人都有病?父啊。。。先从我外公,后,我外婆。现在是我。。求祢看顾保守他们。。我。。。唯有信靠祢啊,给我平安,让我不要太担心他们。


“我若不信在活人之地得见耶和华的恩惠,就早已丧胆了。要等候耶和华!当壮胆,坚固你的心!我再说,要等候耶和华!”诗篇27:13-14