Prayer workshop @ Kajang Chinese Methodist Church

I am so grateful. Bro. Joshua came and fetch me at 5.40 a.m. and that's how I went to join the prayer workshop in Kajang Chinese Methodist Church. It was great. I learnt a lot from the pastor from Sitiawan. It was a great sharing.

Initially I was a bit reluctant to go, it was because I do not know anyone there, maybe I met some of the once but still, the feeling as a stranger was still there. However, when I reached there, a very kind sister, Sister Teh(I am not sure how to spell her name) came and approached me. I sat beside her and throughout the whole prayer workshop, she made me felt so comfortable and I stranger anxiety faded away slowly. She introduced me to many of them but I can't really remember all of them.

Arrived home around 2 p.m. To make it short, I will conclude what I learnt today in 5 points:-

• Always prioritize my relationship with God
• But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. (Matthew 6.33)
• Praising and thanks giving through prayer
• Pray according to God's promise
• Praying in a group (gathering is a time when you put down ur self-centered life)

Dear God, let it be none of me, but all of YOU...

My Struggle: Bible Study VS Mid-posting Assessment

Again, decision making gives me migraine..

I really planned to attend the bible study last Wednesday but there is a mid-posting assessment on Thursday! Brother Joshua messaged me in the morning, asking about my attendance. However, I did not reply him immediately, I waited until 5 something, only then I started to think about my problem: my struggle.

Btw, it's a lie if I tell you that the matters didn't bother me the whole day.

My palpitation got worsen when the times was nearer and nearer to 8 p.m. (This was the time when Bro. Joshua will come and fetch me to the bible study gathering)

.....in between, I was thinking about lots of things:
1. I am in a conflict with one of my housemate.
2. I missed a deadline to submit my name for private GP attachment, because I have to submit my name by
    Tuesday in order for me to get a copy of letter issued by the Uni.
3. I wanted to go to the bible study gathering but there's still a lot of topics that I have not read yet.

Initially I called up my mum and asked for her opinion. She said if I haven't finish up my reading, I do not have to go to the bible study. She added in: "But... Rev. Mee Ing mentioned before, those who prioritized God will be blessed by Him."

Later, I still felt uneasy, I wanted to SMS someone to ask for opinions on this matter. However, I realized, whatever they said, it won't change my mind of going to the bible study. Maybe I just want to get a reassurance from a Christian? I don't know. Lastly, I didn't SMS. So, I called Hasvini, my housemate, and she came into my room. I gave a sudden cry because I really can't take it anymore and she was shocked. She did comfort me not to worry too much.

Yknow what?! This is the time when you start questioning yourself why do you want to become a doctor, bla bla bla...

And what make me laugh was that Hasvini promised me that if I was called up to stand in front of the class for not submitting my name for the private GP attachment, she will stand with me. Upon further prompting, she said she will stand by me emotionally, but not physically. If I insisted her to stand with me, she will stand in the toilet -_-" C'mon, doesn't everyone scare of lecturers? Perhaps not all la..

Unfortunately, I fear God more than anything else. I admitted that I don't know much about Christianity and the God's promises but one thing that I know is whatever God says, it is TRUE and He will keep His PROMISE according to His time and His PLAN. Now, I am trying my best to have a daily devotional time.

I always hold on to a verse from 1 Samuel 2:30, "Those who honor me, I will honor..." (Got it from the story on The Flying Scotsman- Eric Liddell), in short, prioritize God ^^,

I flashed back my memories on how God helped me to go through the up and down of my four year medical student life and I strongly believe that He will help me again. I must do my best (means that I have to study also) and leave the rest to God!

So.. I had my dinner and went to the bible study gathering.

The bible study that night was a helpful one for me. We discussed about the topic: Denial of Self. At first, I was so scared if I will break down during the bible study gathering but then during the bible study gathering, I felt so relaxing, listening to the sharing from brothers and sisters in Christ. I learnt a lot from their sharing :)

I slept straight away as soon as I arrived home. I was supposed to wake up at 2 a.m. and continue my revision. However, I overslept and woke up at 4 a.m. Looking into my handphone, there were 12 missed calls from my mum since 12 a.m. until 4 a.m. hourly... >.< Pity my mum, I told her that I will just use the alarm clock in my handphone but she insisted to wake me up through her phone calls. I felt bad but really grateful to have a mum like that. She always mentioned that I was away from home ever since I was 13, hence, she will do whatever that she can, to help me to success in my study :')

So basically I had enough sleep, but then the contents in my head will be less a little bit. I still believe that God will helped me.

The ending: I managed to do the questions in my mid-posting assessment, although the marks wasn't like "Wow!" but I still thanks God :) My fear was that I couldn't make a diagnosis. First diagnosis I got it right, it's occupational bronchial asthma, however, I just couldn't understand how the diagnosis of allergic rhinitis can come across my mind at that point of time for the 2nd diagnosis...so.. I got it right too. Yeah, so thanks God for everything, for the up and down! However, there's still a lot of things that I can't answer when the lecturers prompt me when I was in health clinic. Therefore, I have to READ MORE...Gonna start with pharmacology of common diseases (mainly I have to read on the side effects of certain drugs coz pharmacology is my FAV-VOUR-RITE.. (^^)/

In addition, no more cold war between one of my housemate with my friend and I! And this morning, my lecturer already passed me the letter for the private general practitioner without scolding me for my late submission of the details.

^^, that's all!

Grateful to S___

Week 7, Pediatric posting. I met a very cooperative and cute 7 years old patient in the ward. A mother and a son. The son was having fever with the saddle appearance. He was suspected to have dengue hemorrhagic fever. The little boy was so cute and cooperative. I managed to clerk a very complete history and do all the physical examination on the boy. His mother knew that I was a medical student and I mentioned to her that I wanted to learn. Her mother allowed me to check the boy thoroughly. Basically I was practising for my coming end-of-posting clinical examination which will be held on the following week.

After the practice, I won't leave the patient just like that. It was because I do not want to approach a patient just for the purpose of learning. I think that was a little bit selfish. I always took at least 5 to 10 minutes to chat with the patients before I left them.

I chatted with the mother, found out that she was a Christian and we are actually attending the same church in Sitiawan there. I was really grateful to the patient and his mother for helping me so much in my learning. Just feel so bad because I can't do anything in return to them, showing my appreciation because of their kindness.

The patient's name is S___ (pt confidentiality, hehe ). I was happy when he was discharged on the 5th day of his admission.

Encouragement words and Praises

A short story, hopefully it benefits those who read this :)

This morning, Miss T went to clerk a patient. The patient's mum was really nice and polite. After a long chat, Miss T asked the daughter, what do you want to become when you grow up later? She didn't answer. Instead, her mum answered, "I don't mind what she wants to be in future, I believe God will provide us and His arrangement is the best." I was stunned for a second, and smiled asking if they are Christian family. Her mum said yes. Her mum asked Miss T as well. Also, her mum add in her conversation, telling Miss T,

"When you graduate later, you will become a pediatrician is it?"

"No, after housemanship, I will become a medical officer. I need to further my studies and practices in order for me to become a specialist."

"You will become a very good doctor in future."

Miss T replied, "erm... there is lots of things I still need to learn."

"You must become a pediatrician!" The mother add in.

"Erm...hopefully, hopefully I can go through my degree first. By God's willing."

THE END.

Actually it's just a short story that I found it is good to share. I find out that the positive force or encouragement words are very important to motivate a medical student to continue their journey. However, there are always pros and cons. Cons for the praises are crystal clear. It can put a person high up in the sky and brag about him or herself. So in conclusion, either the praises are good or bad, it depends on how one perceives about it. We can choose :) Most people works for praises, but as for me, it is a waste of time to be a servant of others praises. Do everything that will find favor in God's eyes :) Shalom..

Child neglection

16th November, 2011

Today,while watching the physiotherapy performed on a kid, the grandmother told me in tears that the kid's mum left the kid because of the delayed development. I was stunned...The grandmother was worried, worrying there's no one who will look after the kid when she passed away..

Of cause I wasn't crying in front of her. However, the story was really sad and it taught me to give thanks all the time while giving our care and empathy to those who are less fortunate than us..

Last night, I played card games with one of my patient. He was really cute and he was admitted snce the first day I started my practical in HSM. He was really bored so I spent 15 minutes to play with him. He was reall happy after that. I believed that we, the medical student's job was not only clerking and doing the physical examination on the patient...we need to cheer them up also.

"The hunger of love is greater than the hunger of bread." -Mother Teressa