26th Aug 2013, 11.47 pm

我的心啊，你当仰望耶和华，不要在自责了。。。


惟求奉上生命全归主所有，要将一切尽献於我主的手。
我已决定今生再没所求，惟望得主称赞已足够。

爱是不保留 Unreserved Love （华语版）

[爱是不保留]
常听说世界爱没长久 哪里会有爱无尽头
尘俗的爱只在乎曾拥有 一刻灿烂便要走
而我却确信 爱是恒久 碰到了你已无别求
无从解释 不可说明的爱 千秋过後仍长存不朽

谁人受痛苦被悬挂在木头 至高的爱尽见於刺穿的手
看血在流反映爱没保留 持续不死的爱到万世不休
惟求奉上生命全归主所有 要将一切尽献於我主的手
我已决定今生再没所求 惟望得主称赞已足够

[Unreserved Love]I've always been told love won't survive,
Promises will turn into lies,
The world just thinks love comes and passes through,
It never lasts pure and true.

But I still believe love can last,
It's your unfailing love that gives me rest,
You were there when I needed you most,
I'll never walk all alone.

On the cross you died and took away my curse/sin,
Love so wondrous no one ever could deserve,
Your bleeding hands proved your love unreserved,
You're my greatest joy and treasure on the earth.

Make my life a fragrant offering I pray,
Help me Lord to serve you truly every day,
Through tears and joy I'll give you all my praise,
Let the whole world know your love and grace.

父啊，两个月了，够了吧？求你保守看顾我外婆。

"Even if you don't go to Penang, do you really think that you can help your family members to change their course of life?" - Ma Nar yi yi.

Only in You that I can depend on now. And please help me, to walk out of the darkness... Please, remind me always, that things on earth are temporary, even a relationship. 惟求奉上生命全归主所有 要将一切尽献於我主的手 我已决定今生再没所求 惟望得主称赞已足够.

In remembrance of my late grandpa.
20/8/2013

Movies

Something I am CRAVING for right now..

1. The Grace Card
2. Lion of Judah
3. Chariots of Fire

Those who love the movies; The Phantom of the Opera and The Sounds of Music, I recommend you to watch Les Miserables! I had watched it, it's a nice one :)

Whoever know where I can watch the movie, "The Grace Card", please let me know.. Really want to watch it, I have the feeling that I need to watch it.....

thank you.. time to study.. 

My spiritual partner, my angel, my sister!

God gives me an angel, before He took away my beloved grandfather. So, what is that? Here is my sharing..

I met a friend in Masland Methodist Youth Fellowship and later, we become spiritual partners. 

She is a very good friend, I still remembered, the night after the funeral, I was very sad. I sat in the car and called her up..and I could not control myself and cried. We talked for a very long time, and amazingly she managed to make me smile in the end. Even before my grandpa passed away, she will either come to my place or I will go to her house, and we will have a so called sharing session? We shared a lot of things :) I thank God for giving me an angel!

She is my spiritual partner, she gives me encouragement, continuously. She said I should avoid all the voices around me and focus only on God's voice. She encouraged me to learn how to pray. She gave me reading materials to boost up my spirituality. I can send her my prayer requests and she will pray for me. Only now I realized, how important it is for one to have a spiritual partner, so that whenever one is weak in faith, another one will encourage and they will walk through it together. I thank God for giving me an angel!

Last but not least, she is like a big sister. There was once, after the cell group fellowship, she sent me back. On our way, the light of the lamp posts on the road suddenly went on and off. I told her that I was scared and she immediately asked me not to be scared while patting on me. The night when my grandpa encountered the second attack, I was so scared, I don't know what to do and I called her up, although nothing much she can do. But I know she did pray for my family well-being. Again, I thank God, for giving me an angel!

Well, if you asked me am I thankful for my mum, my grandma and etc. Yes, I do! And now I thank you Lord for giving me a friend/spiritual partner/sister. I am writing this, so that I know how blessed I am. 

Proverbs 18:24, "One who has unreliable friends soon comes to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother."

I have found one but ultimately, of course, Jesus is the friend who sticks closer than a brother/sister!

Now I am already on the flight, I guess it is going to land soon? Hopefully! I am really tired but I still have to finish up 3 case reports! Gambateh!

Evelyn

In the airplane

8.27pm.

She is ....
Lending me a shoulder to cry, when problems came I failed to bear,
In your hectic life you give a try, wiping away all my tears.
Somehow we seldom spend much time together,
Always, we remember each other in prayer.

Evelyn,
10/8/2013, 11 pm.

My grandfather, an amazing man!

My grandfather just passed away, actually it has been one month already. Yes, I know he is going to somewhere better now, he is back to the eternal home. I still remember, everytime whenever I come back to Sibu, he will ask, "when are you graduating." He is happy that I am studying medicine. But.. Why can't you just wait for my graduation day? It's only a year left. I always want to treat my grandma and grandpa a good meal using my first salary.. But, I just can't make it :'( yes, I have money now but I know they will be more than happy if I treat them using my first salary! My grandma told me, no need to buy them anything or treat them with good and expensive food, just get a certificate of degree and show me, she said it is enough. 

I really like what my 3rd uncle said,

3 virtues that our late grandpa left for us:

1. Love God, love the church

2. Love your family members

3. Live a simple and happy life

Those are the virtues my late grandpa left for me, in fact for us.. I promised I will love God, and love the church. As long as I am still able to serve God, by God's will.. I will. For God love me so dearly. He even prepare an angel for me before He took away my grandpa. Thank you Lord! Love your family members, yes I will. Live a simple and happy life, it is not easy.. A month in KL I was so fatigue and exhausted. I am still adapting with the situation that my grandpa is no longer here with us. In short, I lived a terrible life for the past one month. I can hardly sleep and almost 5 days in a week, I will wake up in early morning, somewhere around 2.30am. Yes, I do believe eternal life, but of course, memories come in once in a while, especially when I saw elderly patients. Everything was upside down and finally I chose to run away for a while. I came back last Friday and now I am in Sibu Airport waiting for my flight to KL. What happened to me? 

Dear Heavenly Father, surely you will carry me through all this terrible times. A life of a Christian is never a smooth sailing one and in Psalm 130, the psalmist said that in their suffering, they called upon God, they prayed. They waited for God, in peace. I will be ok. And I have to change, don't be drifted too far away emotionally, it is affecting my works.. 1 things I realized, I started to have a closer relationship with God. The quiet times with Him is so precious nowadays. And I am listening to Him..

Evelyn

Sibu Airport

28/7/2013

6.38pm

衪必不撇下你

今早，崇拜前，看到这个招牌后，我听到有一个声音说，＂孩子，记得这是你五年前跟我祷告的吗？你祷告，希望在塞城有一班基督徒会进来开一间圣所。你现在看看，牌子挂上去了。申命记3：18这么说，耶和華必在你前面行，他必與你同在，必不撇下你，也不丟棄你；不要懼怕，也不要驚惶。＂

我心里回答说，＂我会象诗人们在诗篇130里，因着信来等候(v.5)，仰望(v.5)，守望(v.6) 祢。谢谢祢，因我在低落时可以向你呼求，因祢不撇下我。当祢沉默时，我选择相信。放假了一个月，明天我将会在次回到病房里了。感恩。。。求祢赐给我爱心和智慧。求祢时时刻刻与我同在，奉耶稣基督名求的，阿们。＂

Fire fire, so what?

This evening, a roaring flame sweeping through a few houses in its path, like a great famished beast devouring everything while belching out black smoke.... . in the kampung area? that's what I heard. I was thinking, what can I do to help?! Oh, I am alone, knowing nothing, so ...how can I help. Then I was thinking, did the church send out any care group team? I don't know. Suddenly I woke up in the middle of the night due to a nightmare and partly because the alarm in my house rang. I start thinking of the victims  >.< God please help them, if there is anything I can do tomorrow, please reveal it to me so that I can do something tomorrow, since I am now in Sibu. I will discuss with the elderly tomorrow and ask them for the updates..!